My last 8 months here in Taiwan have been arguably the most rocky, emotional and trying of my entire life. And as I sit here right now about to start applying to stay for another year here to reach my Chinese language goals… I’m almost on the brink of tears. It’s so hard to imagine making it another year here and continuing to go through some of the shit that I experience almost daily… and as I look back and remember everything, it brings back good memories but a lot of pain as well. I guess the fact that I’m standing here today is testament to the fact that I am resilient, and should at least apply. But that does not obscure the fact that just the mere thought of staying here that much longer hurts me in many ways.
It really does.
And that fact in and of itself makes me both exhausted and sad while staring at the headline of this application.